PARENTS HATE BOYFRIEND! MAKING MY LIFE HELL!? SUGGESTIONS PLEASE BEFORE I KILL MYSELF!?

k, well im not really gonna go kill myself & he's not my bf YET. but ok here goes, I dated him a few months ago....but an incedent occured and he broke up with me, i got drunk and tried kissing his bestfriend my parents didnt knoe i was dating him at the time till they looked through my phone, they found out 1: I lost my virginity to him 2:hes not my 'friend' hes was my boyfriend the whole time 3: he smokes weed 4: he drinks 5: i sent him 'pictures' ...This ABSOUTLY SHOCKED THEM. now let me remind you, my parents are strong christians and firm believers in absence. I was grounded for 3 months. Told that if i ever have ANYTHING to do with this boy, theyll find him and split his throat. they refer to him as 'the devil' the guy 'who tried ruining my life'. they HATE him. wwith a deep burning pion. ok well this boy just got out of juvies a few dayays ago..and w are going to date i wanna give him another chance because he changed so MUCH, ITS UNBIELEVLE, DOESNT DO ANYTHING bad anymore. I dont plan on telling my parents until they find out which is a given..b I swear to god...I am completly in love with him. hes tottaly worth every singlle ounce of anger and stress that thats coming way beccause of my way because of my parents. i know hes the one because while we were broken up i went all out and hung out with soo many guys to try to fill in the empty hole he left inside my heart but nnoo matter how hard i tried i jusst couldnt love anny of them like i love him. and none of them could make me feel the way he did.